Sometimes i’m just tired

tired of switching between being able to do what you want and having to take care of E again. don't get me wrong: I love taking care of E. but during our weekend away I got to taste a different life. a life in which no one is dependent on my care for a while, a life in which I don't have to be 'on' 24/7. and that was very nice. but it was also very confrontational in a way. as if I suddenly noticed what life could have been like.
because no matter how normal we think caring for E is, and with how much love we do it: it's a different life.

I am okay, I just had a head full of thoughts...