Runaway train

This train passes underneath me every morning I cycle to work. So today I left a couple of minutes early to get a shot of it.  
I was having a great day until a hour ago.  
This morning a couple of the students and staff joined in in the walk fit class for adults with additional needs. Everyone that attends has support workers. It's a great group and fab for socialising and exercise.  I've added a link to where we went. 


https://www.crichton.co.uk/directory/crichton-church/


Because its Tuesday the boys have James round for a play and dinner. James says that Tuesday is his favourite day . How sweet is that. 

So I got a voicmail saying that the Jedi has managed to get a appointment at the dental hospital for tomorrow afternoon.  Which is great.  I called his health visitor to cancel her coming out as the dentist appointment is more important.  Anyway I was going to struggle for childcare as Mr R  is seeing a massive client tomorrow.  But I thought its ok.  My mum is coming down and staying with my twin and her kids for a few days, her bus goes passed mines so I'm sure they could all come and sit with my bigger wildlings.  Well I called my twin and she called my mum and her response " I don't want to sit with screaming kids. What the actual fook.  She sees my kids maybe 3 times a year so I thought she wouldn't mind sitting with them. I told my sister not to bother and I will find someone and if I don't then I can just take them all with me. I'm so angry and upset.  I don't think I'm in the wrong for feeling this way. My wildlings get judged from outsiders that I would think family would be supportive.  How wrong am I. Obviously they're just as judgemental.  

My friend has messaged while I'm uploading to blip as I sent a Snapchat asking if anyone was free. She's going to have them. God she loves my kids more than what family do. 

Apologies for the rant. I just feel so let down. X