Different day, different bear!

This one is still intact for the time being!

I had booked today off as I had booked a vacuum service. Sadly, it wasn’t a the noise want a rattle but the motor burning out. New part needed. 

I managed to walk dog round the block again, but it’s exhausting! I’ve cancelled the hairdressers appointment for tomorrow and will work from home. I do need to go into the office on both Wednesday and Thursday though, so hope I’m up to the driving. I’ve booked Friday as leave.

The last few days, the pain has consumed me and my thoughts. It’s no better, but I’ve layered that with grief today as well. So all in all a low day doing nothing. Christmas cards arrive, and I don’t know if I’m saddest about the large numbers arriving addressed just to me now, or the two that arrived to us both because I had forgotten to let them know. I gave up sending cards years ago, and so glad I di. The trite messages - we hope you can enjoy the festive season, we hope 2023 is a better year for you!! And so on, are almost unbearable. I don’t want to do Christmas. I have to do Christmas. And as for New Years Eve……….This is all so hard.