When will the difficult days end?

To the vet first thing this morning. Toff continues to lose weight. Over the last couple of weeks she has eaten less and less. Today she has eaten nothing. Waiting on blood results.

One of the wonderful hospice carers called in, she’d only just heard about mum, brought a bottle of bubbles to raise a glass to mum, the only time in 5 years that she’d ever been to visit a family afterwards, said our family had touched her heart, so kind, but opened up the wounds again.

Coffee at a nearby hotel, arrangements finalised for wake. Dad taken unwell while we were there. Very concerned how he will cope on the day of funeral.

Was meant to visit Mum in the chapel of rest this afternoon. Undertaker called to say they’d lost the coffin! Had to postpone the appointment, in the hope they find it soon!!

Went to florist to choose flowers for funeral. Florist’s iPad wasn’t working so couldn’t show us any photos, had to choose flowers blind.

My brother and I went to the pub to drown our sorrows, the twinkling lights being the only glimmer of light in a very dark day...

Thank you so much.