Saturday

Woke really early and waited for psych nurse visit. I was tired and emotional and full of horrible thoughts. I cried the whole way through the visit telling her what was in my head. 
Discharge still on Wednesday with the joint visit of psych nurse and my OT. Dreading it. 

Afterwards I went for a tea, and wandered along to Dobbies for a look at their indoor plants. 

Struggling to want to stay alive and no one cares. 

(just looked at my one year ago photo and it is of the same place!)