The faint whiff of summer

Well that is a jinxed statement if ever I made one.

Evening blipites - isn't it totally fabulous when the sunshines.

Big sis sent a picci of dad playing in his study last night which made me smile as its always an image I have of my dad playing (or tatting about as he calls it) on his computer or some gadget or other.

I knew it was going to be a lovely day - I woke up at six and could see the sunshine peeping through the shutters. So that was me all excited and waiting for husbands alarm to sound.

Quick shower, quick feast of a lunch bag made for husband, a tot of organic beetroot juice, splash of brut and off I went to market with my granny trolley, a big smile and sunshine. I can't believe the bag full of fruit n veg I bought for a tenner.

I can report that the butchers were on fine form this morning.

Naughtily I ventured into my guilty pleasure shop and managed to part with fourteen pounds in poundland. I then cheered myself up for the overspend by going to boots and super drug and totting up the makeup I had just bought which came to 48 pounds alone!

As an aside I have been trying to grow my eyebrows back (being a child of the 70's/80's I have for many years over plucked - as was the fashion) well I've been trying to grow the a la Kate Middleton stylie to try and regain a bit of youthfulness - apparently your eyebrows style can age you/give your age away. I have persevered but realised I needn't have bothered plucking them all these years as they are so fine and blonde anyway you can't even see them. Of course the new hairs are growing at all angles and are still too short to train upwards but they have grown sufficiently enough for me today to excitedly use an eyebrow pencil to colour in these fine white blonde hairs to make thick luscious brown brows - a la Kate Middleton. I do declare I looked a complete tit and promptly rubbed my caterpillars off plus the over heavy neon eyeshadow I had indulged in that made me look like a tranny and got back to acting my age and trimming my nasal hair. When husband came home to collect his bike he actually commented on how well I looked and my skin looked fab - I HAD NO MAKE UP ON - girls why do we bother - blokes clearly prefer au natrel. If only hd knew half an hour before I was giving Lilly savage a run for her money.

I bought some more gardening bags - like I need them ! But for one pound it's stupid not to.

A swagger down the high street smug with my granny trolley overflowing with goodies and bumped into Aunty d and Alice. A costa was in order. It was awesome I can't remember the last time I had one. I can't believe I used to have two a day when I worked. I must have spent a fortune - outrageous. It really did taste amazing. Alice has exciting news of buying a flat - her first property how exciting can't wait to see it.

Had a very quick lunch today then an hour on the phone to esse technical support who I have to say were very efficient and mega helpful. It's almost a shock these days.

A true girli dolli hour was spent playing with new make up and hair bands. I can't believe I feel so well it must be the sunshine.

Spent an hour on computer trying to plan special trip husband wants to do which I agreed to when incapacitated with my bad back. Of course now I'm feeling better I can't think of anything worse. I am such a nervous traveller I hate myself for it. I've been stalling for two weeks - you could say three months but my back has been so bad plus all that typing I did for the month and I really did work my socks off I didn't fancy logging on after that plus it was freezing - so really it has only been two weeks but yes I have stalled on those.

I know I am crapping it as I have been grinding my teeth in my sleep and starting to get my stress lumps. But I promised I would go - personally I am sure at the time that was diazepam fuelled and I would agree to anything - anyway I need to get over my pathetic ness and get on with it and remember how lucky I am to be able bodied to do these things. Fear is a state of mind (and also an unfortunate symptom of fibromyalgia so anything that makes you nervous makes me phobic - aaaarrgh). Anyway I am doing this for my husband and for me and I will flamin well enjoy it. Coooommmeee ooonnnn

So after skirting round the website for an hour carrying out more avoidance tac tics i took the plunge and called. I spoke to a very lovely Russian lady who was so helpful, knowledgeable and persuasive (the perfect saleswoman) and was very attentive to my fears. She even managed to make me feel quite excited!!! Well she is going to send me through info she thinks will be of interest plus all pricing - which sounds basic and obvious but what we are trying to do is a bit of a minefield so to have someone sort it for me is fabulous plus what I would normally wizz round and plan standing on my head my fear is blocking my retaining information receptors and preventing me from making progress

Well I feel a bit like I've had a weight taken off my shoulders and have a bit of breathing space but slowly and surely I'm now making progress. Russian doll has, as said, very efficiently (damn it) now sent all the info through for us to review including visa pricings etc. a nice touch I thought that she would call me next week so I have had time to review, research and discuss with husband. Instead of the high pressured just sign here and can I have your card details. I don't react well to high pressure sales so this I feel quite happy with. A weeks breathing space woohoo. (Damn Russian efficiency).

Whilst I am typing this the one show is on with someone suffering from cancer. I am very lucky. I must go on this trip. AND I MUST STOP GRINDING MY TEETH

Just cooking up a curry storm for husband who is out on a 20 mile bike ride with the property crew. It's his turn to set the route. Late dinner for us tonight.

Nb i am sure ive mentioned this before but to anyone suffering from fibromyalgia I swear honestly that organic beetroot juice is the source. I believe it really has reduced then numbness tingling and pins and needles. It is very good for the blood, circulation, liver and kidneys. It's taken about for weeks of having a proper glassful (sometimes more) a day but I really do think its worth a try - anything that helps make life bare able has got to be good - oh don't be scared of the pink number ones n twos. Or Katie price poo as I call it (she being a fan of hot pink). Oh and don't wander too far from the loo for the first week of taking - lets just say its efficient!

Adios amigos - fibro kiss my a**

Ps boys most put out no power walk or sedate gardening today.