Total mess everytime I should travel

Everytime I travel, specially when it is to my hometown, it is a total mess. Not ot is 3 am in the morning, I should go to the airport, ai think around 7 am. (I am not even sure). And I havent managed yet to pack my stuff.
I have so many work to do, on deadlines all the time.
I know that two days after I arrive there will be an homage to a friend that tragically died a few months ago.
I think I am going to pack my saxophone to play it, perhaps, that day.
But I also have to bring my laptop, hard disk to edit. My camera, mic. All those things are fragile and I never put them on the plane stock. I always bring them in a hand bag or small bag.
Not easy when you are an artist and have to take a plane. Music instruments need to be carried with you, cameras and laptops too.
But airlines restrict verymucho the handbags on board.
I am always a little bit in panic when there is a long flight, now wearing a mask and worst when I am also with a 'deadline' for my film.