I hate these days.

My whole life is been full of bad situations in days like these.
All my family and I can do is just waiting. I don't feel good at all. I feel my body heavy. I'm tired. I don't want to eat cuz I'm not hungry. It's been six days, I miss her. I miss saying BOO. I want her back, strong as she can be. I want her back. I miss fighting with her. I miss all those words she used to say.
I think I'm not ready for living without her. This is so hard. I don't want to see her till she's good. My dog and I aren't ready for letting her go.
Please, whoever that decide this, don't make me stay in between, I want her with me, yes but if that's not possible...I'm open. I know I'm not ready but my family is going to help me. I still have my granddaddy. But Life, don't make this hard.