Saturday

Last night  my therapist replied to my email. I had asked to restart sessions with her , as we discussed we could do after summer. Her reply was no. She says she would always be worried the same thing would happen , she wouldn't be able to give me her full attention and we're not a fit anymore. I do understand where she is coming from and I too have thought about that happening.
It's hard for me as I don't have much recollection of that day and she did say that I had scared her and didn't want to be in that position again. A one hour appt turned into 7hrs and ended up in A and E. I fully understand, but emotionally I can't get my head round it. I really liked her and she was so good.

Today I was meant to be at the park at the McMillan coffee morning but I haven't been able to get out of bed.  I've been so upset.  I made myself reply to her this morning so I can try and move on. It's going to be hard.
I now have the minefield of looking for another therapist.