contemplating…

…decisions

when to share - when not to

i saw this goose - and i could relate - his expression made him - appear as though - he was deep in thought - wondering about the - complexities of life - while i’m not thinking - that deeply, i am pondering - a decision about sharing - something here which - shouldn’t be a big deal - and i am more than likely - making more of it - than i need to - it’s just that i don’t want a fuss - but then there’s a part - of me that says - ‘make a fuss - who cares? support is good’ - and really, that’s what - this site is all about - and if i’m honest - truly honest - i could use the support - because i woke up this morning - wishing my sister was still here - to be able to hear her voice - loud and confident - boisterous and sure, telling me everything would be okay - but she isn’t - so i have you - and here’s the scoop

the last few months - i have had a progressively difficult - time seeing but really didn’t - notice right away - until one day while driving - and then i became very scared - many tests, also scary - because you’re forced to think - you might have some dreaded disease - or something - and seeing specialists, revealed i am - simply dealing with a not so fun - functional issue with my eyelids - it’s almost funny if not so dangerous - at this point - easily fixed with surgery - which i am having done - this thursday, the 29th - thing is, surgery is very risky for me - due to a propensity for throwing clots - but i have faith abba will - guard and protect me - everything will be resolved - and my sight will be restored - to it’s normal functioning - so i can once again have…

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happy day.....