Today I had my pre-op chat with a nurse. I had to do it first thing because of work but it meant there was no time to process everything and Mike was on a call anyway so I left for work feeling a bit overwhelmed and upset. I'm trying really hard to "look forward" to my op because it's going to remove the b*stard tumour that I want gone so desperately but I am scared, naturally. And it seems counter productive that I'll go from feeling really well at the moment to not feeling so good whilst I recover. I'm told to expect it to take two to three months. I'm used to being busy all day every day so this is going to be really tough mentally. But I'm stronger than I ever thought I could be so I know I will get through it somehow.

And inevitably I had to explain about Henry as that was the only other time I have had a general anaesthetic so of course that was hard.

Work was hot! I have two walks I can do that are in wooded areas and next to streams so the dogs can just go in and out of the water to cool off. The kids are just having to entertain themselves whilst we work. Toby is at tennis every morning this week but they are getting bored in the afternoons, bless them. I won't be so busy next week as Kerry is back off hols so hopefully we can plan some stuff .