emo thursday

today has been a funny old day, mainly good with little bits of emo-ness and confusion rolled in for good measure! most of the day has been actually doing some work for a change, chatting lots, laughing lots and nursing my wind bitten hands! boo! got very confused when i bumped into the most 2 faced woman ever at work (described earlier in the week by a colleague as a "snake with tits!") haha!) who must have been on something to be so nice and even finished our conversation saying how lovely it was to see me! calm down love! later i got a text from old neighbour christine who was saying she randomly thought about me while sitting by the window avin coffee - cute! she was telling me how much her new neighbours love my old garden and everything i did to it (made and filled beds mainly with cuttings and seeds, planted trees, climbers and shrubs and bulbs everywhere..i wonder if the fritillaria ever came up through the lawn? :-S..i also built a couple of raised beds in the yard leading to the garden) and it made me feel really sad as i miss that garden so much and everything it represented at the time - my dreams of getting married and having children and living happily ever after in a lovely home...which was all fantasy of course :-( well i've certainly learnt since that time that life never really turns out like your daydreams, that's for sure! this sadness wasn't helped by the radio playing songs that reminded me of being an emo teenager! motorcycle emptiness, perfect day and opus 40 all stirring past emotions! that's what happens when you don't have enough sleep! and that will certainly learn ya!