35th Birthday

Today is my 35th birthday. It didn't start out too great. Mr. Apple took the day off from work to give me a few hours at the spa this morning. But, I didn't find it at all relaxing. I mostly just layed there wishing I was hope with Mr. and Baby Apple. Is this a natural feeling of motherhood? You're tired and you miss your alone time but as soon as you get any you'd rather be back at home with your baby? It's an odd feeling. But, I came home and spent the afternoon and evening with my two loves and the day improved quite a bit, despite still being my 35th birthday. It seems ages ago that this happened.