The day after the night mare.

I'm still half drunk but wey.

Yesterday was cool, quite a decent birthday until about 8 at night. My "girlfriend" decided it was time to run her mouth when we're both drunk which was obviously a bad move but I held in my anger and didn't speak or do anything.

I then went outside to smoke and she followed so I told her to go back inside as it was stupidly cold and she lashed out. I'm a heartless pathetic excuse of a girl according to her which basically has fucked me up even more as from 4 year ago I've been gender confused, I was meant to be a boy. I crave to be a boy everyday but I never talk about it like ever. However Hyde doesn't care what gender I am or want to be but she enjoys to upset me over other, she ended up making me stay the night and i missed the last bus from Consett so I had choice but to stay. I ended up hiding in her wardrobe at 1 in the morning because I was terrified of what she'd do next, she ended up dragging me out and hit my head off the wall numerous times, stopped me breathing several times so I passed out a lot and pulled me around by my hair and throat constantly, I have no idea what I want now but I'm just too forgiving with her. She tells me she hates me and never wants to see me again then decides that I'm hers when ever she wants. Not to mention her "ex" steph ended up accidently parking outside hydes house with kez and Anna and then got out of the car and Hyde aloud steph to cuddle up into Hyde and shit. Teenage life =ew.


I'm so hungover/ drunk and my body aches.