I felt pretty grumpy when I eventually got to walk today.
I eventually found somewhere to park and stomped off and realised I just wanted a big, wide open space and a path where I didn’t have to be thinking where I was going.
After a few miles I came off the public footpath and climbed this small hill, dropped down the other side out of view and looked for somewhere to perch.
I realised that all I wanted probably wasn’t so much a scenic hike but somewhere away from everything and everyone, somewhere to sit for a moment, cry, feel that sense of just never seeming to be able to have the space to catch up with everything, or myself, cry again, and drink my flask of coffee. I did that just here and then walked back to get ready to face another week..