Wednesday

Dreaming. 
The P&O ferries are still docked in Leith; going nowhere anytime soon.

I wanted to and needed to go down to Ocean Terminal today to sort my phone contract, instead of upgrading I am downgrading. Needs must. 

My anxiety is getting worse. As soon as I started walking away from the house I panicked. Inside OT , I felt so uncomfortable , couldn't wait to get back out. It felt like a foreign place. Found it stressful following the one way system, doing the hand gel as you walk into a shop, talking with the mask on. 
I just want to stay inside and forget that there is a world out there. 
Constant thumping chest and pain.