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I’ve been really struggling lately, apart from the perimenopause and a very bad back and a persistent cough which I’ve had since December The fact that I have cataracts which is getting worse and everything looks a bit misty all of which get me down to some degree or other each day, sometimes because I don’t feel like singing, sometimes because I haven’t slept well and sometimes because I am just in pain, none of these things really equate to being ill so therefore I just carry on each day doing my best.

Today I took some time out, I talked to my cousin Sophie, my sister Alexandra and my manager Stewie, In their own ways they helped me to feel less overwhelmed and come up with a plan of action, one of my problems is not being able to concentrate for very long so I’ll be employing the 20 minute task technique to everything for the time being, I’m actually quite excited about it, little and often I should get everything done that I want to achieve, for the last six weeks I’ve been doing ukulele for 20 minutes today and I now know about 25 chords and four strumming patterns and I’m definitely making a lot of progress, I’ve been chipping away at the DJing but have recently felt overwhelmed so I now have a plan for that, I haven’t felt like writing songs but I reckon if I only have to do 20 minutes of it at least that will get me started. Apparently lack of concentration is all part of the perimenopause so I suppose it’s to be expected, I’m quite old to be going through this at 55 but there you go, Last year I was feeling so low and having such terrible mood swings with it all that I eventually went to the doctor and have been taking antidepressants this year which have really helped with the anxiety and mood swings, I didn’t fancy HRT because of all the health risks, I suppose the Silverlining to hitting this point in my life during the pandemic is that I don’t have to break out into a sweat in public or on stage which would be bloody awful!

Onwards....