First day at work

Today, so as not to change my routine too much, I went for a morning run of 7 miles before getting up, getting my son up for his first day at school and for me to get ready to go to work for the first time in over 3 months.

My son was so excited and went off absolutely fine.

My day was so strange in so many ways. Firstly I drove into the town centre, which in itself was quite overwhelming, having not driven too far afield and certainly nowhere quite as busy.

I arrived at work and was set up at a different desk because I can’t sit at my old one as it would be too close to a colleague.

I have my first meeting by video call, went through the hundreds of emails I had and got to grips with how the work has changed. I did a few things, but mostly it was getting adjusted to different log ins, different procedures, finding things that weren’t where they should be.

I found it strange talking to people in my office. Those who know me, know I am a sociable person and I’m pretty good at talking. But to talk to people I work with, rather than my close friends and family, I felt like I was having to concentrate hard and also kept stumbling over my words. It felt like hard work.

At lunch time I went out and walked around the gardens I often used to. It was busy, full of children and adults and this pond was so green I had to take a photo!

When I arrived home, my son was home and he had a wonderful day, told me all the things that were different at school. Sitting on their own, staying within cones during playtimes, eating with spaces between them and having to wait until everyone was finished before going back to class. He seemed quite unfazed by it all.

I decided to meditate for a while when I got home just to switch off from everything and it helped.

It made me realise today how cut off from the world lockdown has created for me, even though I have actually spoken to a lot of people and recently seen people too. I think for those that haven’t or are less naturally sociable getting a normal life back will be incredibly difficult.

I am rather exhausted now so will be having dinner and resting.

I hope you have all had a wonderful start to your week x