Shredding

One of my jobs was to shred all the old paperwork. It’s amazing the stuff you keep and these days most bills/statements are online. Whilst I was sorting I came across our IVF bill, it took my breath away and my eyes pricked.
It always makes me feel sad that I didn’t qualify for NHS treatment, funding should be for all or none in my opinion. I feel robbed that I didn’t get my chance because I married a man who already had children.
I always feel a little sad at this time of year as I should be celebrating my child’s 8th birthday if it had worked.
I’m incredibly lucky to have my wonderful stepsons who I adore and would give my life to them. But always a small part of me mourns the loss of my milestones. Life eh?