I am so much more than this.

"And in one little moment
It all implodes
This isn't everything you are
Breathe deeply in the silence
No sudden moves
This isn't everything you are
Just take the hand that's offered
And hold on tight
This isn't everything you are

There's joy not far from here, right
I know there is
This isn't everything you are"

I heard this today, it's stuck all day. It felt like it was being sung to me.

It's been a productive day, but it's been BAD and I am grateful beyond belief that I go to the hospital tomorrow - I am not leaving until I have a date. Really, its enough now - I want the joy, not the daily implosions.