Monday

A full on day. 

Mum was at the hospital today, a meeting with the consultant. Her lump has shrunk from being 6cm when she was first diagnosed and now it is 1cm. She has 2 more chemo rounds left to do then a break of 4wks. She then will have surgery, and 2/3? weeks of radiotherapy every day. Not what we were expecting. 

I then had  a psychotherapy appt which was good. We talked about hope/positive /negative thinking. My thinking is very black and white and it's hard for people to accept that, always trying to challenge me on it. It's nice to talk about these things with someone who is neutral. 
She has also recognised I have a very complex relationship with Mum! More to be explored she said! 

I then went for a walk. I walked backwards on a walk I do frequently. Felt good. 
I feel mentally tired tonight.