Pink amongst the Green

After the wild weekend weather, it was a relief to have a sunny and dry day today. I slept better and was up early. I went to have my thyroid blood test, and then went to meet A for a coffee in town.

It was so good to see her, even if I did essentially 'verbally vomit' over her for the hour ;-) I had asked to pick her brain about college, and we had a good old chat about it. She only had an hour as she was off to have her hair done, but I appreciated her taking the time out to meet me. It's taken us six weeks to find the time to do this.

I feel better after seeking her advice. I took my tutorial record with me, and she said she wouldn't be worried at all. She also picked up on the same thing I did- that word concern- and felt it should be points for development instead. I said I was feeling as though they want to see you utterly broken, having disclosed things either in the group or in writing that you wouldn't choose to, and for you to be sellotaped back together in order to say you're ok to go ahead. But she assured me that it's not the case, and I don't have to be there sobbing in order to make it to the next level. It was really interesting to talk about the wider issues of therapy, and I suppose the dynamic has changed slightly, from counsellor and client to I'm not sure what. 

She also said being in therapy myself is a good thing, and I came away feeling more positive. I'll pop into see her in the shop over the Easter break. 

The rest of the day I hoovered my car ( a typical half-term job!) and then spent a happy hour or so entertaining Lucy.