Similar to A Gathering Storm.......

Last week, I shared with my Blip Friends of the gathering storm in my life.  As it turns out, what I thought was going to be the end of the problem, is merely the beginning of my journey.
     I made an appointment with my family Doctor and spent over an hour with him today, talking and understanding.   The removal of the lesion, lobectomy, biopsy, breast surgery, or whatever you want to name it  (called all of the above) is only the beginning  The pathology report was not complete.  The cancer was identified, named, and removed.  That part is done.  What isn't complete yet, is the results of the hormone receptor pathology, it's identification, and stage.   Everything from here on out will be directed by what those results are.
       I am really, incredibly lucky to have such a wonderful family doctor who related to me in down to earth terms, what has changed in cancer care, the different ways of treating it today, based on new methods, research, new drugs, new everything.......     OK, I sort of knew that, but what I didn't know is that many of what I was feeling were overwhelming decisions are doing to be driven by the last reports.   I was carefully listened to, responses concerning my lack of knowledge, my worry about the unknown, that I am really, alone, but not as alone as I feared.....   are phantoms of the night when I can't sleep, and have answers that can be accessed through contacts, programs, agencies, and  coordinate rides, meals, and assistance.  I still don't know which way this is going to go....but it's ok, for now.
      I left the office feeling much better... that when we didn't know an answer, someone would be able to help me find the answers.   At the end of the day, I saw brighter sky's, the sunset poked through the clouds and left light on the sidewalk as I headed back from the walk with my girls.   It was just a little bit brighter.