Summer nights

No Bikram, no gym, no run for today.

Got a phone call at 2am from Mr.Grumpy. He could not sleep and wanted to see me. After repeatedly telling him its not a great idea, he was on my windowsill. Opening that window and seeing him after 16 days when we had our final goodbye made my heart skip a beat. He looks exactly the same, smell exactly the same and I felt that I was finally home. It was like Romeo and Juliet which is actually how our life has been. We can't be together because other people made it so hard and apparently to them our love was forbidden. You can never help who you fall in love with. We talked like old times, hugged each other and our bodies fit each other perfectly just like before. We haven't been together for 3 moths now and I feel that it's been the hardest part of my life. Even giving birth, studying up all night to finish essays or studying for exams with a crying baby in one arm was a breeze through the park compared to this. Some of you may disagree, but each to their own. He stayed till the morning, we didn't sleep one bit, we just held each other. I didn't want to sleep cause if I did, then time with him will not be long enough.

He says maybe one day we will be like in the Notebook and we are able to have each other again and when that happens, it will be forever.... He was my person and will always be... I know it

Went to work and left earlier than normal to have a sleep. Decided at 8:30pm to go for a walk as it was a beautiful night. I seriously love Sydney, I feel so safe walking in the middle of the night. Everyone is still out walking, running, fishing! just love this country.

I'm not sad today like I thought I would be after Mr.Grumpy's visit. I feel okay, we're back to no communication till were both ready for whatever ready means...

I'm seeing him on Monday after he has dinner with his little missy for his birthday. I miss her terribly too even though she was in and out of our life. We decided last night that we will make an effort to see each other on our birthdays no matter what.

Even with my 2am visit, I still don't have my mirror!

xoxo