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I havent blipped in almost 5 years. I had kids. Go figure. Ive been through a lot and ive really shut myself down. I was diagnosed with a panic disorder, and with borderline personality disorder, and ive been trying to figure out how to be a mom the whole time... Plus my oldest is challenging. Were overcoming hurdles together everyday, but hes at his own pace, and Ive had people judge me for it. So i started staying home. Now im mostly afraid to leave home.

I havent had time or the headspace to blip, even now ive been interuppted 4 times, and had to stop kids from damaging themselves 3 times. And ive only written a paragraph.

I didnt realize how bad my mental illness really was until i had kids. I wish i knew sooner, so i could just be a better person, a better mom.

But i am who i am and i can only try everyday..

At least i can cook.

This is Evelyn. My daughter. Shes 3 going on 17. She likes to ask me for steak and ice cream at random times. Here she is enjoying balsamic tomato bruschetta.