Monday

A grim day. I had plans to go into town, to the bank and have a wander with the camera now the festival is finished and it's quieter.

But a pretty horrendous panic attack after my breakfast stopped that. I started thinking about getting ready then I couldn't breathe. Eventually I felt ready to take a diazepam and got to sleep for 3hrs.
Got up, lasted half hour I slept again for an hour.

Got the CPN tomorrow and the psychiatrist Wed. I think these things are playing on my mind. Nervous for both. 

This lily is how I'm feeling!


On Saturday night I took double my meds, some paracetamol and diazepam. Lots of things going on in my head.