Nanosecond
When I blipped those sweet peas yesterday it was because I wanted to mark the nanosecond which I am now struggling to comprehend, and even more, explain. I just wanted to record the existence? or at least the awareness of a fleeting moment.
It was just that, just a passing moment, somewhere between sleep and being awake. I lay there and momentarily felt different and yet I thought perhaps I remembered that feeling from before, from some other lifetime. I can only say it was a sense of not being so persistently oppressed that this feeling, which I can only describe as the opposite...liberation? ... got a chance to briefly emerge....for a nanosecond. The only way I can describe it is as if there was a momentary lapse of concentration in the space/time continuum, a brief break in the clouds, a fracture in the earth’s crust revealing another world below, an almost subliminal scene switch in set continuity backstage and the wrong backdrop appears before the curtain was hurriedly put down and the familiar stage returned .... a glancing awareness of something else that I remembered felt familiar.

Four things occurred to me ... one, that it felt like a whole other universe; two, that I knew it, I recognised it, I might even have once lived there...surely I must have done in order to recognise it? After all, to recognise is to see again, isn’t it?; three, that this must be a bit like the whole parallel universe thing, that there can be something else, a whole other way, just there...and that we spend our lives, our whole lives even, shrouded; and four, it went as quickly as it came, I just have the memory and I can’t voluntarily retrieve it and am devastated.