Wednesday

Woke quite early this morning, and it only took me 3 hrs to get up ;) I tidied and did some dishes and quietly said to myself think I feel better today. I didn't sleep, a mixture of trying not to, and doing stuff. 

I took a walk round the shore area and was surprised to see the mess in the water. Think the heavy rain we had might have something to do with it. There are posters up with a petition in it to send to the council to get it cleaned. 
I felt my anxiety rise, so decided to call it quits. 
Unfortunately once home I self harmed a few times. 

Got the Dr's at 7.30am tomorrow; don't quite know how I am going to manage that one.