the weathers got me worried

this nasty snow/slush extravaganza is finally melting. fingers crossed. you really dont understand how terrifying it is to walk on. just use salt! it makes it melt! forget the environment! okay, i dont really feel that way. but it is hazardous.

the weather has been miserable the past few days. after i got back from church today i didnt see how it was possible i might leave the flat again. i had to force myself to though, otherwise i would go crazy. ive hardly spoken to anyone in 4 days. everyone has been gone and busy. so i went and met a friend for dinner. and to my surprise it was almost warm out. the rain had finally stopped and i think i was sweating on my way to meet him. of course, on the walk home it was quite cold again. i just want consistency! gah. the weather is, apparently, getting to me.

and on an ambiguous note: i felt i have been changing lately. or that certain things i thought to be true of myself were no longer true. perhaps had never been true. but im fairly certain this is not the case. there were a few moments this weekend when i realised, indeed i feel this way, i have always felt this way, and i probably always will. despite the lure of other potential ways of thinking. circumstances dont seem to matter too much.

its late. im tired. going to bed. goodnight world.