Went to a sands memorial service today and lit a candle for Henry. I miss him so much. This time of year is especially hard but the service helped. Beautiful singing by the leicester philharmonic choir and nice to see Anna the midwife who looked after us during my labour with Henry and at obstetric clinics with Eva who is a member of the choir. Eva slept all the way through and Tobes held my hand when he saw I was upset. So proud of all three of my children.