Happy birthday and goodbye

So today this little beauty turned three. Three years since I was in hospital with a screaming baby lying in a plastic box next to me while I frantically set up a new blip profile ‘LittleEsther’ before the clock struck twelve.

After an emergency section at 5:45am and being awake for rest of the day whilst being plied with drugs, I needed sleep so so bad. Terrified that I was going to nod off and drop her on the hard floor they took my unsettled little Esther away so I could get some sleep.

I woke up to the sound of the breakfast trolley, looked in the cot next to me and there she was all swaddled up and cosy. I think it was the first moment when it actually all felt real, like really real! I was a Mummy and it felt amazing. That has to be the best day of my life. Despite a bloody great cut through my stomach and the realisation as to why I hadn’t been for a wee for 24hrs!

So I think this is probably a good time to stop blipping (962/1095 ain’t bad plus I need to backblip some holidays). My gorgeous, witty little Esther is three and my equally cute and troublesome Iris is almost 16 months.

Although losing Mum still hurts like crazy it’s been a really good three years. Esther, Iris and the boy, I love you all to bits.

Take care peeps xx