A bit lost

Ever since I got done with grad school, I have been suffering from a number of minor but annoying health problems. Recent blood tests revealed a slight anemia, I also managed to slightly screw up my knees from too much sitting ("excessive lateral patellar compression"), deregulated my hormones a bit, and pulled a muscle in my back. All fixable; none life-threatening, yet, when taken together, a bit discouraging. I am banished to the sports bra land forever, am supposed to do strength and stretch exercises for my knees multiple times a day, sleep a lot, eat nourishing foods, not eat sugar, and meditate regularly. Yep, that's about it. Might squeeze some gainful employment and family-focused activities between all that.

On the "head" front, I lost a lot of motivation to do just about everything related to scientific research, and some fire regarding teaching. I imagine I probably have a mild case of depression, but as it seems to be getting progressively better, I won't visit yet another doctor for it. I try to take it easy, but keep going on all fronts. This, too, shall pass?

To get a better handle of what is actually going on with me, I quit caffeine. It wasn't hard, I did not have headaches, or any other symptoms, Being caffeine-free allows me to actually experience tiredness at the end of the day (who knew...), and deal with it appropriately - by going to sleep (who knew...).


In whichever mirror she is lost, I will find her again.