Those moments

Do you ever have those moments when self reflection changes from a good thing to a bad thing? When learning from a mistake turns to dwelling on a mistake?  Well that happened to me this weekend. My self reflection revealed that I have bad, bad habits and sadly others have suffered because I have those habits and in all honesty I have no idea how to change them. 

I can fib and say I know how to fix everything wrong with me and theoretically I do. I know many psychological theories of how to fix myself and how to get rid of habits and such and yet somehow they still don't work. 

Maybe it will just take a life full of weekends of 50k.