Journey Rearranged

Calyx & TeeBee - Elevate This Sound

Today was met with much success and progress. Many friends, business associates and family contacted me today for some reason, serendipity perhaps (or maybe my blip whinings! :P)? Nonetheless, I classify this weekend as a "friends" weekend. It was great. It was so nice to just level and re-connect myself with what I think is "right".

However, the next step is to change myself and align the tracks in the direction which is true for me. I feel so guilty because I'm lucky to have, in my opinion anyway, so many friends and family members who love me, but I'm so caught up in my own selfishness that I simply can't give what I think is necessary, even at full capacity, to give in return. I don't settle on half-assed bull, so I just curl up in silence and a bizarre sense of grief that there is nothing within these two hands that can do justice. I forget that time slowly helps create a mountain. My best English teacher in high school always told me I was a sporadic person without a steady mental grip. I climb the wall instead of taking brick by brick. Time to think short-term that will build towards the long-term.