Candles

Had a very "meh" kind of day particularly from when I got up. Was going to have a lovely day off to myself since I've been super busy recently. Really wanted a long lie in then I get a phonecall asking to come into work ugh :/ typical. It was fine but you know kind of scuppered my relaxing day off.
An art related job also didn't work out when it sounded like there may have been a good chance. They were lovely and I got some really good feedback but said it wasn't quite what they were looking for.Was really disppointed about it as I feel I'm working really hard at the moment to contact people and do everything I can to get in the industry.They said to get back in touch though if I had any other designs and they did seem like they liked my stuff it just wasn't quite there . So I guess that's something at least. Not giving up - I don't give up but it still made me feel a bit rubbish. It's hard not to take rejection personally when art is sooo personal and you never know what people are looking for. You never really know if your doing the right thing or not. Not much I can do though but keep trying and hope one day something will happen.
THEN my Dad came home from visiting my brother in Amsterdam being a total grump taking it out on me (which really wasn't what I needed). So I just wanted to spend the night by myself. Lit some candles as I always find it helps make me feel more relaxed and just to be a to peace with things. Played a bit of guitar letting a few things out and has made me feel a little better.

On a more postive note I'm happy about the selling of my christmas cards nearly sold all of them at the stall at the weekend and have orders for 40 more from work (hopefully with more to come throughout the week) so I'm really happy about that