A Mockery Of A Sham Of A Travesty

A well meaning soul sent me these biscuits and a HUGE box of Yorkshire Gold teabags - Danke, Liebe Sue.

But I have a question.  "Tasties"?  When in the cotton-picking-marathon-is-now-snickers heck did that happen?  And after doing some biscuit based internet research I see that Jammie Dodgers* are now Dodgers and are now available in toffee & chocolate varieties.

This is wrong.

The whole point of Jammie Dodgers was that they were Jammie Dodgers.  And that was it.  "Toffee Dodgers" or "Chocolate Dodgers" just tells me that you have no imagination whatsoever and I'm now scared to look at either of these names on Urban Dictionary because I just know it would make me shudder.

Such biscuit based nonsense is not what I want to talk about.

I had my first appointment with my Psychotherapist today.  He's a very calm bloke who asks lots of questions.

That was an uncomfortable hour.  

It was also the first time I've really felt there has been a breakthrough - although it was accompanied by quite a tearful breakdown episode.  It's lucky that I always have hankies with me.

I do not subscribe to the view that "Real Men" shouldn't cry.  And I would argue that if you never cry that you have some dodgy wiring in your emotional circuits.  The pain that you can let go of when you cry is therapeutic - cathartic even (Danke Aristotle).

I felt that today I rewired some of mine.  And a couple of lightbulbs lit up.

After the appointment I met up with a colleague. I wanted to chat with her and let her know how things were going.  That meant going back to work and sitting in the coffee bar at work and actually talking.  You know, an actual social interaction.

My stutter is back.  When I'm anxious, it loves to jump in and not-help.  But we've chatted and it was great to see her - Danke Manuela.

It might not sound like much to you, but all of this gives me hope.  This ship of my foolishness is being righted and this time there will a much better outcome.  I'm sure of it.

And here's a Yay to Friday evening.  Good to see you again.  Gleich geht es los.  

*My softball team name from the mid 80s.