Much reflecting taking place.

Having had the night and this day to try and process my reality, my goal is to focus on the positive, all the amazing coincidences (won't go into details) that has brought this situation to light before it got too impossible.  I am indeed a very lucky person, so much has come together to bring this situation to the light of day when it is still very solvable.

I am blessed to have the guidance of my family and close friends to help me thro what is proving to be such a hard choice for me.   But when it comes to the crunch i don't have a choice really....i will need back surgery and it could happen within the next 2-3 weeks.

Off to bed, exhausted and looking forward to a good nights sleep.