It's not always as it seems

Life is full of twists, turns and expectations! We all have our perception of what being a parent is and expect our children to be perfect but when this does not happen it can take a while to get your head around it!
I see this at work all the time and explain to parents that children with conditions or special needs are born to special parents who have the ability to provide that child with everything they need and that although they don't have any idea how that will achieve it they do and they succeed in nurturing and getting the best out of that child! It's so easy to offer the words of advice and I do truly mean them when I say them but trying to follow our own advice is always harder as I have experienced in the last few years. I am a positive and practical parent who wants the best for all my children but the lack of control you feel when your child does not quite fit the "norm" is overwhelming and at times tipples
me to the edge despite what I look like on the outside! As with my special little boy things are not always what they seem from the outside and yes I feel guilty for struggling with the problems we have to face as I see so many other families with children that are in much more serious situations and stop and think - count yourself lucky but then I stop and think that the issues I have affect me and us as a family in different ways, and that when going through my life it's my experience and my feelings and that you can't compare because it's what is real in this moment.
Today was a day we have waited for for 2 1/2 years the last piece in a jigsaw puzzle and a piece I have looked at and known exactly where it went but today someone fitted the piece into the puzzle and it's made me step
back and look at it complete! However much I thought I was ready part of me wants to mess the puzzle and hide it away! I know I can't and I'm trying to just accept it and move forward because at the end of the day I have a lovely family and our family would not be complete without our little boy and one things for sure we love you just the way you are :) as we do our 2 gorgeous girls xxxxx