Cheeky monkeys

I'm beginning to wonder......wonder if I'm strong enough to do what I'm doing.

I mean I'm doing it so I guess that means I am, but at what cost? I'm not a superhuman. .. I just a 36yr old woman with 4 kids and a hobby that has turned into a business! I run this ship/ house to the best of my ability.... leaving no job unjobbed.... ensuring everything is ship shape and bristol fashion.... making sure everything is right for everyone. ...fighting to get things done in the time I'm given!!!
But seriously how can one person... one human being make all these things possible indefinitely x? ?? Is it possible.. well it is because I'm doing it!

But.... just once I'd like to feel like a woman... to feel like I matter.... like I'm something other than chief servant and nanny and breadwinner... at the moment. .
I love my kids more than you can know and I enjoy my little business growing and the sense if achievement it brings . So..... why oh why am I bloody miserable :'(