Saturday

I spent this morning in town looking for books on personality disorders or the therapy DBT. I wasn't successful. I am obsessed , I need to find information. This in its self tells me something.
Sat in the gardens , but didn't last long.(blip) Too many people together having a nice time.

Ended up meeting S, K, L, and H in Stockbridge and going to the play park. We spent 2hrs together and not once did they ask about my appointment, ask how I am. It was all about them and what they've been doing.

In self destruct mode I came home, self harmed and started to drink.