Tuesday

Try exercise they said.
It will help your mood they said.
This morning I woke feeling good and full of energy. Oh they are right I thought.
Mid afternoon I plummeted, feeling numb and low. All of a sudden. It has continued. I forced myself, after work, to go for a walk. I was drawn to this moss, it made me think of a bumpy ride.
Tonight I have closed the curtains, cried, I have self harmed and now I have opened the cider.
Two more sleeps to the psychiatrist.....