Valentine's Day...?

My first ever Valentine's Day. 

I'm not very good at showing my love or being romantic but my Smelly told me that it meant something to him and I didn't want to let him down on the day. I bought lots of silly decorations and did the living room up with them. I turned off the lights and put on the heart lights on the wall and it looked really nice. I was partially let down when I initially showed him because it looked like he didn't care and that he just wanted to go back to his xbox. I packed it all away and went to bed really upset. I figured that I shouldn't have tried so hard when I knew he was on his game. He gets so obsessed with it I was stupid to think I could do anything to impress him, especially when I've never done it before.

A bit of time passed as I sulked in bed and he came back to me quite upset. He told me he was sorry and he didn't mean to not show that he cared. He wrote me a letter. He told me that it made him sad to see it because he was going to buy me a ring but he wanted it to be in a more romantic setting. And when he saw the lights and the pictures and everything else that he regretted not doing it. 

I'm not too sure if this was actually the case or if he just wanted to cheer me up and make me feel like I did a good job but I don't care. I'm still upset that I wasted my efforts. But I love him and I'll get over it after I've slept it off.

He put it all back out and we had a nice little meal and watched some movies together but it wasn't quite as romantic as I tried to make it because of my sadness.

I bought him a new gaming chair for VD and I suppose it was my own fault I couldn't get him to engage. I just hoped it would be good enough as he said it meant something to him. I guess there's always next year.