Flower

Its actually been a good day.  

Late out of bed. Out with friends for lunch and a walk this afternoon.  All very nice.

I am torn between explaining my ebbs and flows here on blip.  On one hand its my blip and on the other some are kind enough to come back and leave comments and sometimes stars.  And then there is a third side  if there is such a thing and informing people even if in a small way of an illness/condition called fibromyalgia.

I have this thing and sometimes it makes life difficult in a number of different ways. Pain is the main one. Often in pain.  Not high intensity pain just low pain (slight lie because its only low because of the rather large amounts of painkillers Im on) but low it is on the daily living scale. But its high enough to become waring. Because on the whole its always there.  Mornings are pretty pooh because rather than waking feeling refreshed I wake having had a restless night due to pain and disturbing night due to vivid dreams (the dreams are the side effects of painkillers).
The pain can easily be described as feeling as if you have been beaten up and your body just feels bruised.

Some mornings its not easy to get up. Its hard to drag yourself out of bed and go through the whole thing again. Which leads me briefly on and through to depression and anxiety. Its not hard to get fed up and side effects of drugs add to negative feelings.  Motivation goes out the window.

Then we get to memory and focus on the task at hand.  Both of these can be hit with what is known as fibro fog.  Basically its the inability to think and keep hold of the tasks you had in mind a split second ago. Then and I shall end here is fatigue. Doing simple things can become daunting, simple things tire you out and require constant breaks and often things just don't get done.

This weekend has been particularly bad on the tiredness front.  And to think I got to go work tomorrow.

Here we go again in more ways than one.

Hope you liked my flower