Can't think straight!!!

I'm home tonight in my own bed for the last 5 days I've been sitting by the bedside of the lady I support as on more than one occasion we thought she was passing. After 7 days on a morphine drip with no food or fluids she is still putting up a fight. It's sad to say that it is time for her to go as she is suffering and if I knew what she was staying for I would give it to her and let her leave this place in peace. I know we are supposed to leave work behind and not get attached but that's not in my nature and I would find it impossible to do my job if I didn't care. This is my first experience of losing someone that I have supported and ended up caring for through a terminal illness. My life has been truly blessed by having this wonderful lady in it.

I tried doing a spot of reading but totally distracted and so tired xx