Bright Spot

It's been a very long, hot day today. They said 24 degrees but there was not a cloud in the sky and it felt like 30.

I had been feeling upbeat, even with said thing looming tomorrow. But more rubbish today meant I came home feeling a bit rubbish. My sister was there too, rubbing the bump, and whilst it was nice, it hurts. And then I feel overwhelmed, and ready to wave the white flag. 

I felt myself on a downward spiral this evening. I planned to go to the gym, but I didn't have time. 

I had a rather unproductive evening, just prepping my defence for the meeting tomorrow. 

How did this become my life? 

Where did I go wrong? 

I wish I could turn the clock back.