Only In Moonlight

My Dear Fellow,

Me and Er Indoors stayed up late laughing and talking last night. We were both in great moods. The cause of mine was obvious. 

As for Er Indoors, I've never seen her so happy. But it's not an all-at-once-sun-from-behind-the-clouds happiness. It's been a gradual thing, like a step-by-step climb to a summit.

I had an anxiety dream last night. I used to get them all the time growing up so I know them when they happen. When I was a kid I used to dream I was driving a car, but it was like in a Laurel & Hardy short, where the car spins around and around with bad back-projection. I'd be completely out of control and hit things but then keep on going and couldn't stop. 

In a subtle change, last night I was driving a tram that came off the tracks. Kind of appropriate, I suppose.

Both of these things - Er Indoors's good mood and my freaky dream - are connected. Things are starting to move quickly and we're both feeling the change coming on. So I decided that today I'd take a day off and not think about it, and treat today like just another Edinburgh Saturday. There's been no checking out furniture shops in Wellington, or looking for jobs. Instead I've been hanging out on the floor with Jasper like I'm another cat. He loves it when I do that, rolling around and showing me his fat little white tummy.

It's pointless, but I think we both needed it. Tomorrow I'll go back to reality but for today, it's all about naps and a never-ending Saturday.

Parsones