Good Grief 247

I bet the person who invented boil-in-a-bag meals was a menopausal woman. At least when you walk you're just sweating, or should that be glowing, all the time anyway.
The euphoria of finishing work on Friday has become some relief at just not having to get up and keep going, if only for a week. There's still the task of being bothered to live but at least with all these sleepless nights I can take it at my own pace. It's a funny old business, having holidays. Almost all my holiday time since my husband died nearly five years ago now, has been spent to-ing and fro-ing on the long trek to mum and dad's, in between all the long distance care management that became almost daily for much of the time. I tended to 'squirrel' time 'just in case', just in case I needed to stay longer or just in case I needed time to collapse for a bit if I wasn't feeling up to the emotional drain of the job and not wanting to go off sick.
So, with mum dying and not needing to take that last week that I had held in reserve I ended up with 6 days and, wait for it, 3 quarters of an hour (blessed are the bean counters https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-xLUEMj6cwA .... I will never get my head around how, in this, supposedly civilised day and age, we continue to run organisations like modern day Victorian mills).

I was interested to listen to a You and Yours special programme on coping with bereavement with the particularly poignant phrase 'Grief is love with nowhere to go'.

So, partner, husband, father, mother, all gone, childless and menopausally ebbing .... here we are... in a week off ... a week living in a void. I can just hear the back to work chat ...
'Where did you go for your holiday?'
'Void'
'Oh, lovely, I've always fancied going to Void ... what's it like?'
'Spacey'.

So far I've been really curious about when action starts.
I came to the conclusion it was probably about the time of conception...the jury is out on whether that is conception of just me or the whole universe. I'm inclined to think the latter.
Good ol' T.S.Eliot and The Four Quartets again..... hoorah!