Latebus or Late Bus?

This is a shot from the Hypocam app. Ok can they really start paying me for promoting them now?

It was a rainy day. Not just the platter, oh no. It was messy rain. It was "You can't be outside" rain. The lonely rain... I like rain, when it's light or moderate. This rain I did not like. It triggers my depression, and blocks me from being human. The main reason for me to take this photo? Plain boredom. Spotify wasn't enough under this screaming rain, neither were the cheerful conversations of the sleeping bodies all around me. They were sleeping, obviously, not talking. Also, it's a test photo. For black and white. I think it is successful. It's not too necessary for the b&w shots to be sharp. And the bumps on the road led to moderate shake on my hands. It's good, I like it. Sometimes I think that the slight shake is even better.


I think this picture also resembles how I feel in my head when depression hits me. Ahh, depression, my love. Normal people feel like they're depressed because they haven't experienced depression, they've experienced major sadness. Depression comes and goes, you have nice days and bad days. Nice days make you look excited, happier than ever. Because you're conscious about your happiness. When it's a bad day, you feel like a heavy liquid is filling up your skull, and your brain is drowning in it. For me, when it comes I get a slight headache and I'm like "Yup, if I cry in the next few minutes, just let me." It's physical, whereas sadness is emotional, you just aren't happy. When you're depressed there is more, it's so much deeper.

I won't go deeper though, I think it'll be different for everyone who has moderate or severe depression and this'll just get personal. Maybe another time...