Tuesday

I fell asleep last night watching Broadchurch and woke just after 1am. Off to bed and I had a terrible sleep, having horrible dreams about dad and him being the accused in the case I was a juror on a few years back. I woke several times through the night with the dreams.
I woke feeling really tired and not right.

Really struggled with work. Kept myself to myself as I didn't want to have a conversation. Felt really low.
I left work at lunchtime for some fresh air and went down to the harbour. It was a bit windy!

Home, changed and back out to see Grandma. I'm ashamed to say I didn't want to go.

Home, still feeling really low, but frustrated at myself.
Self harmed, which let the frustration go but still feeling low. Tea then bed.