Hermitage

Lunchtime walk with my friend S and her two whippets. They recognise me now and were happy to see me, which made me happy too :)

Otherwise a weird day. I feel, I am still functioning on autopilot mode most of the time. Occasionally, I have a content moment, where I feel a bit like my old self. However, in these moments my mind is playing tricks with thoughts like "have to tell Richard about it", "going home now - looking forward to his cooking" etc. and then...bang...you think you go crazy, literally crazy. Functioning on autopilot sort of works, but I also feel that there is a volcano in me, wanting to explode (and I know it will at some point again).

No need to comment, but thanks for bearing with me.